One of the most important things I’ve learned about working and going to school is that you’ve really got to know your “why” factor. When I first started working one of the first things they asked me to do was to identify my “why”. Why are you going with these choices? Why are you here when you could be somewhere else? What’s your reason and motivation?
I sat down and they had me list 10 things (happiness, money, family, independence, etc.) that I valued in my life. Later, I had to cross out 7 things and the 3 remaining were my “why”.
My 3 things were: family, Albert, and money.
It’s like once you get used to being wrapped in his arms nothing else can make you feel as at home.
Opportunities are funny things. Sometimes they seem to walk into your life and you kind of walk with it; other times they’re slapped into your face and you don’t have much time to decide how to act. I’m not quite sure what to do with you.
Best of luck to those madly studying for finals next week (: We got this guys^^
Every once in a while I would come across an article talking about some kid my age achieving some extraordinary feat and it would never fail to make me feel unaccomplished. For the longest time I was stuck with the mindset that I was just ordinary. I was so sure that I would never be one of “those kids” but I didn’t realize how wrong I was. We’re growing up in a time where anything really is possible. I’m really confident that I can turn my life around and be successful and accomplished. Maybe it’s too early to say now but I finally have a clear idea of where I’m going. I’ve found something that could really help me take charge of my life and I’m just really excited to see how far I can go (:
November 18, 2013
I’ve given up on trying to fix my sleeping schedule LOL. I think I’m the most productive at night. I should really stop finding excuses during the day though. Anyway, this weekend was a good one (: It felt really short but I felt like I got a huge amount done. Saturday morning training was great I tried to talk to as many people as I could about their experience with the company so far. I met this one man who had been a part of the company for 6 months and reached a position in which he was making $800-$1200 a week. I’m just getting started but I really hope I can really step it up and do well. So far I’m the youngest person I know that’s a part of this so I’m really going to give it my all for the next few months (: I feel like this is such an awesome change to what I’ve been used to (constantly studying in the science world). My dream is still to become a doctor but lately I’ve been going through some self doubt in my abilities. I love science and health but I don’t know if my hard work will be enough to allow me to do well in the medical field. I love how this job lets me use what I know about health and science but also combine it with a business aspect. Ultimately, I want to find a path that allows me to grow and help better the lives of other people. I hope that this company gives me the chance to do that or opens doors to other opportunities for me to step forward in that direction.
Sunday was a not-so-relaxing day. I had a lot of fun though! I had a recap training with some of the team members and set up a game plan for this week^___^ Lots to doooo~! Well, lots I want to accomplish. I know a lot of people discourage students to do stuff on the side but personally, side activities help push me to manage my time better. I guess as long as you make sure you still have some time for yourself at some part of the day :) I spent the rest of my Sunday reviewing for Monday’s midterm T^T
I had a midterm at 8AM for my Econ Accounting class. That class is kicking my butt. It’s interesting and I love that I’m learning so much but it’s such a huge change from the science stuff I’m used to. Accounting is like a whole new language that I have to learn. Sighh. I’m gonna work my butt off for the final :c
Man that was a long post o__o LOL Well that’s it for now (: yeeeeup!
F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Ice Palace (via larmoyante)
November 14, 2013
Last night I stayed up writing a letter for him. I scribbled down every happy, weird, funny memory I could think of at 3AM. As I wrote them down I would replay each of the memories in my head. To be honest, I started crying but not because I was sad. I felt so happy and blessed just thinking about all the beautiful memories we shared and thinking about all the amazing things he had done for me. In those few lines I relived the warmth of his hugs, the anxiousness I felt when I first started liking him, and the love he continues to give to me today. I still can’t believe how lucky I am to have him.
November 14, 2013
It’s been a good week (: Definitely cracked down on my studying and got lots of work done. I’m pretty excited about ERA and what’s going to come ^__^ Marketing is like a whole new world to me after being stuck with sciences and such. I’ve learned a lot and I’m so thankful to be part of such an amazing and open team. I can’t wait to start building up the Santa Cruz team and getting things rolling ^___^ I always grew up telling myself that I wanted to be a doctor one day. I still do, I think. This is the path that I took going into college but now that I’m here I’ve been getting skeptical. I don’t really believe in myself and I’m not sure if I’ll be able to really show what I’ve got out there. I love science but I don’t know if I’m good enough. I hope that by taking this opportunity I get to grow and also really show people what I am able to accomplish. I always beat myself up for being behind and for not doing everything that I can and I’m really tired of it. “Yesterday you said tomorrow”. I’m not going to be that person anymore.
Maybe I’ll start taking the marketing path, maybe I’ll be able to push myself on this path, maybe I’ll do both. Right now I’m just going to give everything my best and keep shooting for my dreams. Cheers!
November 12, 2013
It’s 1:49 AM and I feel like my eyes are going to fall out. I’m so tired haha. This weekend was fantastic. I’ve never felt so free and happy. Jerry, his two friends, Iris and Karen, and I made our way down to UC Santa Barbara from Fremont on Thursday night. The car ride there wasn’t too long but it felt dreadfully long. I was pretty anxious to see Albert. We arrived around 3:30 AM on Friday and I got to surprise him at around 4 (: He was expecting to see me Friday afternoon-evening hehe. I loved UCSB’s campus and just the general vibe of the environment and people there. The weather was lovely and I got a pretty good idea of where a lot of things were ^__^ UCSB definitely contrasted with UCSC but I think both had a lot of great aspects. I would love to visit UCSB more if I ever get the chance (: Aside from the campus, I got to meet Albert’s new friends and floormates who were all really weird but great haha. I’m really excited for the next time I get to visit ^___^ hehe